Sunday 31 January 2016

Trails and tribulations

Sunday 31st January.


Ive had a really, really busy and tiring week at work with lots of early mornings and room turn arounds so I was knackered today. I really wanted a sleep in and a lazy Sunday but neither option was available to me. Joanne has had a really bad chest infection and hasnt been sleeping well at all, so I was up some of the night. I tried to get back to sleep but she was struggling breathing and keeping me awake so I just got up. After a few cups of coffee I tackled the mountain of washing that seemed to have appeared overnight and stripped Olivers bed (he'd had an accident last night.). After that I sorted out the Ironing ( I love ironing NOT!) and did Olivers Uniform for school. I was really tired, exhausted and if Im honest and a bit down. No actually I was a lot down and angry at not being able to rest.
The sleepless nights are taking it out of me both physically and mentally. Im half way through sorting the spare room out so I can get a futon in there, but the imminent jobs keep getting in the way (cooking, cleaning, washing etc). Im still reluctant to sleep in a separate room from Joanne as these arrangements quickly become permanent if your not careful and my marriage is difficult enough as it is ( I do love my wife with all my heart though, I just mean its a difficult situation!).
After Id made lunch and tidied up, Oliver went to chill out and play Minecraft in his room and Joanne was watching some tv upstairs so I had a tiny window of opportunity for a run. I checked everyone was ok and slipped out into the drizzle for an amazing and uplifting run. I came home, made tea, tidied up (again) put more washing on, did the rest of the ironing ( I hate ironing, have I ever mentioned it?) bathed oliver, put him to bed, sat down and wrote this with a huge glass of red in my hand. Phew, what a day!

Running: 9.6 miles


I set of into the rain in quite a dark mood. I was so tired but needed to get out of the house. There was hardly any wind and the rain was only a fine mist (the sort that gets you wet!!) so it made a nice change from running in a force 10 storm. I headed out to North Walney again to hit the trails. Im hoping that the softer ground off road will be better for my recovery and kinder to my sore toe.
As I ran down the prom my mood was still dark so I switched off my mind and turned on my Ipod. I let the music in and let my body do the work subconsciously.At the end of the prom my watch beeped for mile two and it was a 7:30min mile. Wow! I didnt expect that turn of speed and I secretly hoped it would be a speedier return to form. The airfield approached and I sped onto  the waterlogged path splashing along the flooded path. I had taken my phone today to take some pictures to illustrate my blog, so I stopped numerous times to grab a snap.
Splash!
The route goes along gravel paths for a mile or two then continues on a grass path before petering out in the dunes to sandy tracks and sheep trails. Its a great run and very soft but uneven under foot. This should hopefully give me plenty of good work off road in the coming months.



 I pushed on up to the top of the dunes and took in the view, lifting my mood and making me forget about my tiredness and woes. I still love the way running enables me to overcome exhaustion and tiredness. The adrenaline and endorphin's produced by the exertion, refreshing my mind, body and soul that no lazy day on the sofa ever could. I breathed in the bracing salty air and bounded down a dune to the shore and straight into the oncoming tide.



Yes it was cold but it made me feel so alive, so happy and free. There is definitely something about splashing in the sea, it always brings a smile to my face. The tide was all the way in so I ran along the pebbles for a while. A quick glance at my watch told me I needed to get back so I rejoined the sand dunes and cantered back the way I came. I finished the run by bounding over the boulder sea defenses that line my route home. I love running on these big rocks and the focus it gives me, one wrong step is a broken leg (probably) and its good practice for running in the lake district and mountains.
Great Practice 
After the rocky session of quickstep I made my way home along the coastal path and over the fields. I jumped into a hot shower feeling much, much better ready to tackle the rest of my day. What a cracking trail run and on my doorstep too!

Friday 29 January 2016

Back on it.

Its been good to get back running again. I found it really tough mentally to cope without my run fix and I definitely don't like the tyre that has slipped around my midriff over Christmas. I've put a good half a stone on and I can certainly feel it. I'm back on it now, eating healthily and I feel much better for it. I know with a few weeks of running and healthy eating I can deflate the goodyear around my waist.

Because of my forced break, Im not going to push to hard and too soon with my runs. I'm just going for a run every other day and gradually building myself up. I'm going to run for about 4 weeks before starting any training plan with hills, LSRs and speedwork as I don't feel my body could take them at the minute. I've been for two runs this week:

Wednesday 27th Jan.

We`d had a really bad night with Oliver on Tuesday. He had lost control at school and hit out, smacking a classmate in the eye. He was reprimanded for it and was to miss 2 minutes of his lunch break for punishment. Now it might not seem like much, but Oliver gets very stressed and anxious waiting for things and this was no exception.

I totally agreed with the punishment though and I thought it was quite lenient . He has to learn that hitting out is the wrong way of coping and it will have much more serious ramifications at secondary school (expulsion or ending in him getting a kicking).

He was worried all night about it and was crying in bed until 1am! I was knackered Wednesday morning and it was my day off so I was hoping for a bit of a lie in (well I can hope). Joanne had to wake me up as she was in a lot of pain, so it was up to me to get Oliver ready and take him to school. He was really shook up going into school and I was getting upset too. I hate seeing him in turmoil like that, it tears me up inside and I have to bite down my feelings. We (his teacher and I) finally got him into the school and I went home. (Incidentally he was fine, did his 2 minutes and had a really good day at school! little git :)  )

I, on the other hand, felt mentally and physically knackered. I was really upset and felt down, wishing I could take it all for Oliver, doubled with the fact Joanne was bad, it wasn't a good start to the day. As I got home I could only think of one course of action - RUN. I quickly checked on Joanne, got changed and headed out of the door. My garmin watch was dead, adding to my frustrations so I stormed out of the door straight into storm Bertha or whatever she was called! The wind certainly ruffled my feathers as I set off towards the prom. As part of my training I'm going to run as much trails and off road as I can this year and this run was no exception.

 I was headed to North Walney to the nature reserve to run through the dunes and along the beach. Torrential rain soon joined the party and I just ran through it. I let the wind push me around and the rain saturate me. I was so down, so exhausted and so upset.

I was soon at the airfield that borders the Nature reserve and I made my way across the flooded path, splashing carelessly through the water. The puddles were deep and freezing, soaking me with every step in muddy water. My mood started to lift as I carried on to the labyrinth of pathways that snaked through the marsh grasses and dunes. The wind was behind me and pushed me towards the Northern tip of Walney, over hills, dunes and marshes. It was a great trail run and I was starting to enjoy myself. I always wear plenty of layers so I was warm enough as the storm continued its freezing barrage on me. My mind started to ease out of its blackness and the joy of my run came to the front, flooding my mind and body much more than the rain did.
North Walney from above - my trail running playground!
At the end of the Dunes I turned back around straight into the wind. I hadn't thought about the return leg and it was going to be a long hard slog back home. I slid down the last dune, gliding over the wet sand onto the pebbly shoreline. The tide was out and just starting its return so I pounded onto the flats, splashing in the cold water. It was exhilarating. It was a race between the tide and I to the end of the beach where a jetty  reached out. Could I get there first? I pushed forward into the driving rain and wind. Head down,  slow and steadily plodding over the wet surface. There were a few tributaries filling up from the oncoming tide,fast flowing and blocking my path. What the hell, i thought, I was soaked already.

I splashed through the first one, ankle deep. I waded through the next knee deep and nearly had to swim through the last it was so deep, my dangly bits caught the brunt of the freezing water and instantly shriveled up, giving me a sharp intake of breath. I seriously hoped everything would "come down" after I warmed up. My lower half was soaking, cold and a rubbing, chafing feeling was coming form between my legs. "That will be sore after" I told myself. I loved splashing through the water and pushing myself hard against the elements, it was making me feel much better.

As I approached the jetty the tide had nearly caught me. I glanced out to sea to see what I could see and all that I could see was some windsurfers. I instantly thought, you idiots you must be fucking mental. I looked down at myself - totally soaked, caked in sand and mud, freezing my balls off and knee deep in the Irish sea. I laughed out loud - it takes one to know on I suppose. A windsurfer was making his way to the jetty and we both nodded, acknowledging each other. I love that nod from a fellow sportsperson, it like saying "respect", "well done", "nice going" and in this instance "your as mad as me!" . I smiled and ran up the jetty to join the coastal path.

The path was my usual haunt from West shore to Biggar Bank and I ran the length of it into the wind. It was tough going and the wind really picked up at one point, totally halting my progress. The gusts continued as I trekked along through the mud and over the flooded, rocky ground. I finally came to the Round house at Biggar Bank and joined the road to go home. With the wind behind me again I coasted back home. Once there I looked at the clock, Id been out about 1hr 40min. I did the maths and worked out that Id done about 10 miles without thinking about it. Wow! I was totally buzzing, I loved that run and I felt much better. I stripped off and showered for about half an hour enjoying the red hot water but not the stinging coming from the chafing between my thighs.

This is why I run, the release is incredible. There is something about running against mother nature. It strips away everything around you, the world, your problems, your life and just leaves you vs you.
I bloody love it!

Friday 29th January about 4 miles (promise I will keep this one short!)

Id had a hard week at work. It was really busy with lots of room change overs and random first aid casualties to attend to so I was ready for a run out. I got home and Oliver was out with his carer so I had 30 mins to spare. I donned my running attire along with a head torch and headed up to the airfield again. It was dark by the time I reached the path and my head torch carved out a tunnel in the rain. The ground was still flooded so I plowed through the puddles to the beach. I turned towards home and ran along the beach path, enjoying the freedom and isolation. I put my foot down a bit to see where my fitness was and I was pleased to see I dipped under 8 min miles for a mile. It felt hard but I enjoyed the change of pace, nowhere near my 5k pace but a step in the right direction. I made my way home and jumped in a hot shower.
I felt like I was running much stronger today, a good sign moving forward. Hopefully my fitness is slowly returning.

Wednesday 27 January 2016

Trail Running Camp Weekend with the Endurance Store

Trail running base camp

It had finally arrived: the weekend Id been looking forward to for so long. I had booked onto a trail running base camp in the lakes and it would be the first time would be away from Joanne and Oliver. As you might have read, I was worried I couldn't go because I had broken my toe some 4 weeks earlier. It had healed(ish) and I could run on it comfortably. However, my fitness had ebbed away over the weeks but I was determined to enjoy it either way.
It would also, and probably most importantly, be a well needed rest bite for me. Caring for both my wife and son had taken it out of me recently and I was looking forward to the break. I still felt guilty leaving them for a couple of days and I suppose a little bit selfish. Even though I shouldn't, I always do when I'm doing something for myself.
I had organised for Oliver to stay with my sister and Joanne's Mum would be on hand for her. I left on Friday afternoon feeling content that everyone would be alright while I was away. I had cooked, cleaned, ironed and tidied so nothing needed to be done until my return on Sunday. I drove up to Grasmere and found my way to Thorney Howe Hostel where I would be staying or more correctly “bunking” for the weekend.
Stunning views from the Hostel
 After meeting the very friendly owner, he directed me to the bunkhouse where I met some of the other runners. Everybody was so friendly and welcoming it made me feel very at ease. We had a night run organised for those who could make it so I got changed and headed out with the group.

Night Run:
It wasn't a bad evening for a run, the moon was waxing, lighting up the cloudy sky and giving us an occasional glimpse of the surrounding area. We ran gently through Grasmere and headed up to Easedale Tarn, ascending a rocky path that was slick with rainwater. It felt so good to be running again, out in the middle of the countryside in the crisp and fresh night air. Sour Milk Gill roared to my right, raging from the recent heavy rainfall. The instructor told us it was normally a trickle and not the fast flowing rapid it had become. It was no wonder this was one of the most heavily effected areas of the winter floods. Once we had all reached the tarn, we were instructed to switch off our head torches and I looked upon the black water under the moonlight. As my eyes adjusted to the dark, more and more details came into view giving me a breathtaking picture of the still yet very full tarn. After a few moments at the top we descended the slippy path and made out way back to the hostel. It was a lovely introduction to the weekend.

After the run some of us arranged to go for something to eat in Grasmere. Nine of us walked into the village looking for a pub or restaurant. We found a few but they were all closed, the recent floods decimating much of the trade in the area. Just as we were about to give up we spotted a hotel with a lounge bar. We ploughed in to the 4 star hotel and ordered some food, hoping to eat in the lounge. The waitress took our order and informed us we had to eat in the dining room. To our shock, it was a 4 star restaurant, candle lit, quiet and full of well dressed diners. We all made our way to the table and enjoyed a well earned but expensive drink. Considering no-one knew anyone, we were suddenly laughing and joking, swapping stories and enjoying each others company. A fire alarm and impromptu evacuation stopped us mid flow but only added to the enjoyment of the night. After some really good food (it was 2 rosette after all !!!) and a few more pints, we walked back to the hostel and got our heads down ready for a full day of activities on the Saturday.

Running with the poles
After an early start and a light breakfast we all headed out for the first activity of the day. We would be introduced to walking poles used for Nordic walking and could be used in Ultra marathons. I must admit that I had always been a bit dubious about using walking poles for running but I was willing to give it a good go. 

After a brief training session we set off along the “Coffin Trail” - so called as it was the route taken to carry the dead from nearby Rydal to the church at Grasmere. It is a fairly easy trail which gets rocky in a few places and gives great views across the Valley, overlooking Grasmere and Rydal water. Using the poles was very interesting and certainly helped when going up hill, the extra push from my upper body definitely made ascending easier. We made our way along the trail and started to pick up the technique, pushing harder into the ground and propelling my weight along. We reached a hillside underneath Loughrigg and we were shown some more ways to use the poles including skipping!, bounding and descending. It was really good fun and we all seemed to get a lot our of the session.
The return run took us down Red Bank and back to the Hostel in Grasmere. We had about a hour to spare before the next part of our course so I took some time out and grabbed a quick snack. Then we were straight back into it. We were having a training session in the park with last years Lakeland 100 winner Paul Tierney.

Playing in the Park.
The group stood around in the cool afternoon air as we listened to Paul. He was a practitioner of natural movement and showed us many of the natural exercises we could use to strengthen and better mobilize our bodies. The first thing we did was to play some games. 
The games were really fun way to introduce us all and soon had us moving around, warming up and having a laugh. My favourite was a balancing game (more like a lack of balancing game). As 2 groups we both stood in a line facing each other about an arms length apart. Then you both put your palms up infront of you (like you were going to play Pat-A-Cake), plant your feet and try to unbalance your opponent with just your raised hands. I was great fun and soon sneaky tactics and feints came into play as everyone twigged how to play it. It was so enjoyable and such good fun, we all forgot that we were adults.

Once we had all warmed up, Paul showed us some exercises to do and we all made our way across the muddy grass Duck walking, shuffling and hopping, it was great. To finish the session, Paul had set us up a circuit of workouts to do. There were weighted squats, single leg jumps, and ring hanging to mention but a few. I could feel some muscles being used that hadn't seen any movement in a while and knew I would be tight the day after. I didn't care, I was having a great time. After a warm down game we headed back to the Hostel, exhausted but contented.

Night Navigation
I had a quick shower and headed back to the main room in the hostel for the days final session – Map reading skills followed by a practical night navigation route . The instructor Charlie was very easy to follow and I soon brushed up on my navigational skills at the talk. We all got changed and headed out into the hills for a night navigation training.
It was a darker night than the previous one so visibility was quite poor. The only light came from our head torches as we made our way along a trail towards Easedale tarn again. The difference this time was that we were not being led, we had to navigate it ourselves. 
It was interesting to open ourselves up to the night, listening to nature for clues as to our whereabouts and looking for collection points along the trail (gates etc on the map that would let you know where you are).
Checking the map
 I really got a lot out of this, giving me more experience for my race in the summer that would be, in parts, under darkness. We reached our destination and carried onto a different path which joined the Coast to Coast Route.
We wound our way back to Grasmere and the hostel, showered and changed ready for the group meal. The hosts of the hostel had worked very hard and produced a gorgeous steak pie with vegetables and potatoes. This was followed up with home-made sticky toffee pudding and a coffee. We finished off the night with some great conversation and a few pints. What a cracking day.

Long Sunday Run
After a few hour sleep I awoke and packed my bag. We had to be out of the hostel that morning before our long fell run. We all moved our cars into Grasmere and set off on a navigation course that had been provided the night before. The co-ordinates were scattered along part of the Lakeland 100 route and would let me see some of the trails I would be running come the summer.

This is my homework!
We split into two groups, one group running at a quicker pace. I was in the quicker group and almost regretted it as the front runner pushed off at a hard pace. Id not trained or ran for nearly two months and I instantly felt the pace. I didn't feel too good but shoved it to the back of my mind and pushed forward, knowing we would be hiking up an ascent soon where I could catch up.
The route took us out of Grasmere and over the crag to Chapel Stile. It was a good climb and the wind whipped up as soon as we crested the top, making it hard going for a few minutes. We dropped down the other side and onto the Cumbrian way. 
Down we go
We headed North West along the trail up to Great Langdale before turning south to circumnavigate Lingmoor Fell. I kept my wits about me and started to commit the route to memory as this was a good stretch of my forthcoming Ultra route. In fact it would be about mile 94 of my 100 mile race so I would be exhausted by the time I got to that point.
From there we made our way to Little Langdale and headed back toward Grasmere. Normally I could take the run and distance in my stride – it was about 16 miles, but I had nothing left as we came over the top by Elterwater. I had to suck it up and push on as the pace quickened again.
I was really hurting but kept on moving along, it occurred to me that it was good mental training for when things get tough in races, so I kept with it. I slipped to the back of the group and struggled on just managing to keep up. After a fast slog on the flat path to Skelwith Bridge we turned up to Loughrigg. The climb was long and arduous but eventually the top came in sight. A few of the group carried on to the Summit of Loughrigg Fell but I had nothing left. All that remained was a steep and rocky descent into Grasmere an a mile or so on the main road. I used everything I had left just getting to the car and I was so glad to see the car park.
I was a little bit embarrassed by my lack of fitness but I knew I had good reason in a broken toe, so I didn't chastise myself too much. At the car I slipped on some dry clothes and wolfed down a pasta salad. A few of us headed into Grasmere to grab a coffee before departing. One of the lads spotted some home made pasties on the counter and I treated myself to a Beef and Stilton one and it was amazing.

It was only an hours drive home and I thought about the weekend as I made my way home. I had really enjoyed myself, pushing myself hard but also enjoying not having to think about anyone else for a change. I knew my fitness was going to be an issue but Im sure it will be back soon with a bit of hard work. The weekend had worked wonders on me, clearing my mind and giving me a new focus for the coming months. I decided that I was going to come away from road racing this season and concentrate on trail running instead. I just love being in the open countryside, its so uplifting and energizing, I love it.


A big thanks the organizers of the Base camp: The Endurance Store, especially Rich and Dan who led us expertly all weekend and always had time for our many questions. Thanks also to Charlie and Nic for the pole work and map reading and to the owners of the Thorney Howe Hostel who were very hard working and welcoming throughout our whole stay. What a great weekend!

Monday 25 January 2016

Hes not Mental, Hes an Ultra Runner...Season 2 Episode 1

Ive tried to restart my blog a few times over the last few months but Ive had so much to deal with and time slipped away from me. However, the time is right to start season two with a big shove in the right direction by my Brother in Law, Garry. But before I crack into it, its time for a recap... (in the style of an American TV Show Box Set, make sure you do the deep voiceover voice..)

Previously on Hes not mental, hes an ultra runner.....


October: I ran the Lakes in a day ultra and finished =10th and took the rest of the month off to recoup.

November: I fitted a new kitchen at home (our old kitchen was 15 years old and was desperate for a replacement) but it took a lot longer than I though it would. It completely exhausted me by the end with many late night finishes! The final result was worth it but it took a lot out of me, much more than I realized.
The Kitchen before:

The Kitchen after:


December:
The screening of Star wars-The Force Awakens was absolutely AMAZING, it was everything I had wanted it to be and much, much more. We had a great night at the midnight screening.

With Christmas coming it was a very hard month. Oliver has a love / hate relationship with Christmas. As all kids do, he gets overexcited. But he also gets very stressed and anxious, often exploding in anger and frustration. We try to keep the run up as low key as possible but with all the hype our job is impossible. By the time Christmas eve came around he was so tired and angry he hit out and was extremely upset. On the big day, a day that is supposed to be "wonderful", Oliver really struggled. The randomness of family visits and the fact now hes getting older, the smaller gifts get (eg a game for his console) he couldnt understand why he only was getting a small amount of gifts.
He melted down a few times and I spendt nearly half the day in bed with him playing on his xbox, completely away from "Christmas". It was so hard seeing him like that and Joanne and I have discussed completely changing Christmas next year and either going away or nicely "banning" any visits on the day.
Joanne has been really ill throughout Christmas and new year, struggling with every thing. Its been really frustrating for her, even having to get other people to buy and wrap my present.  Shes been really down again and spent most of Christmas resting.
Ive got to admit its not been a good time, Without my running I started drinking a bit more and struggled through. I was so exhausted and I had twisted my shoulder so I couldn't exercise at all. It was frustrating, infuriating and quite dark in my head. I didn't enjoy December one bit.
I did however enjoy Paul and Lauren Wilsons Wedding after Boxing Day. We had a great night and Joanne and I had treated ourselves to stay over so it was a nice break (and I got a bit pissed with the boot camp boys, a cracking night!)
After Christmas, Oliver got in a state on New years eve. We had been to my Sisters family party, but the busier and longer the night got, the more Oliver got wound up and tried to lash out. I had spotted it and whipped him away before he had a meltdown. Moments later we were home and he seemed to get worse , desperately tired but stubbornly wanting to see midnight. In the end he was so tired and angry we grabbed him and put him between us in bed and watched the Snowman film until midnight. He calmed down, as he always does when thats on, and we all watched Big Ben strike midnight and I took him to his bed where he was asleep in minutes. I was so glad to get that month over with!

January:
Hallelujah, my shoulder felt better, the rest had done me the world of good. I had a trail running weekend at the end of January and I could finally think about getting out for a run. Oliver had calmed down and after my first day back at work I was rearing to get stuck into my new season and training plan.
I got home from work that night, put my PJs on an came into the bedroom, barefoot as I always do. I spun slightly and smashed my little toe into the corner of the open door. I knew it was broken the second I did it. My world fell apart around me as cursed in pain. I had it on ice straight away but the damage was done.  
After a few days I managed to walk without a limp but could not move fast or run on it. I finally made peace with my self and accepted the injury - there was nothing else I could do!. The weeks passed and I  re-evaluated my training and race plans for the coming year. I realized I couldnt do the early events I had planned so I scrapped them all, looking at some other options to get me to the Lakeland 100 in July.
 Joanne was still ill and her Arthritis has been playing up with the cold weather so I still had to care for my family, broken toe or not, so it was a bit hard for me to manage. My main focus was going on my Trail running Weekend. It was going to be the first time I had been away by myself for a "rest bite" and I desperately wanted to go. I rested my foot as much as I could and the week before my Basecamp I went for a rather tentative run. My toe was still a bit bruised and tender but I could move around on it ok.
I laced my trainers up and set off at a snails pace. My plan was simple - If I got to the end of the street and I was in pain, that was it - I was going to cancel the weekend. But luckily the pain never came and I pushed on to do a slow and easy 5k. It was physically tough but mentally uplifting as the weeks of not running melted away along with the months of tiredness and stress. I was back! I ran another couple of times that week, keeping the runs easy and light, getting me moving for my weekend away....